Finding words.

 Finding the words to say, I love you. I'm sorry. I care for you. I'm angry.  Sometimes it's hard  findings words to accurately express a point. It's ridiculous some would say, there are thousands and thousands of words that have gone estray, surely there has to one, some, or even dozens  that match with what we're trying to convey. It's simple and condensed.  I should start mumbling at people to express what I'm feeling. With low mumbles of gibberish to display my indifference, and  high shrills to convey anger.  A palette of different tones should be enough to phrase what's on my mind. I'll just  point whenever I need something, or even better I'll draw picture. It's just that there's so much to say, and finding the words to say it becomes difficult. I used to be able to go on and rattle with frilly flowery words, making a point but that's just not the case.  Searching for words is a scavenger hunt for the intangible.

 My thoughts and lips don't match. How can one even really find the right way of saying? If I said this or that would that make you mine? would that make you angry? The impact a couple words can make is daunting. Though Words are often ignored when tone comes into play, I could be saying I hate you so much right now, with a smile and cheery tone and it's all okay. Everything so mismatched, when I'm writing a paper, and I see empty lines and I feel almost sorry for them for I know I'm not going to fill in these spaces.Words are so powerful , chose them carefully, and think how am I trying to come across goes with the words I pick?  Have I even really put into thought I how I want to come across to people? I'd rather spend time finding something to wear, which is not going to be anything spectacular.